Knight vs. Prince

As a little girl -and even now as a somewhat grown-up girl- i dream of my story.
When i was younger, that dream was influenced by stories and movies, that focused a "prince" to wait for. The underlying theme in them was that a prince would, some how save the day, or just because of a certain noble position, be eligible to marry the princess.
This is all well and fine, just a little off as i have thought it over more.
i think that i want to be with a "Knight"
A knight is still along the lines as a prince, in that he must be in a certain position to be eligible for the princess's hand, but this right is not handed to him. A knight's eligibility started at a young age and was a lifestyle chosen and worked for. (If i have this right- i studied medieval times, but it was a looooong time ago!!)
Knighthood training was a long and often arduous process. Knighthood training began in early childhood when a basic education and good manners and rules of etiquette were taught at home. At the age of 7 young boys were sent away to the castles and homes of wealthy lords or relatives to embark on their knighthood training. From the age of seven to fourteen these young boys were given the role of a Medieval Page. From fourteen to twenty-one these 'apprentice knights' were referred to as Squires . The different types and styles of Knighthood training depended on the age and strength of the apprentice knights. Knighthood training was focused on weapon practise which included enhancing skills in horsemanship, the two-handed sword, battle axe, mace, dagger and lance.
(i found the above on a website called "Becoming a Knight" ( www.medieval-life-and-times.info/medieval-knights/becoming-a-knight.htm ) who woulda thunk?)
But it makes what i was trying to say all the more understandable.... i hope! :)
So with all that hard training wouldn't the Princess's hand be worth more than something handed to him because he was born in the "right family?"
i think that guys can still be knights- maybe not so much in suits of armor on a horse, its about character. What was instilled in them at a young age, and what they have trained and prepared themselves for.
In as much as i hope "he" has been preparing himself for me, i hope that i will be found ready. Everyday passes with a mix of sadness and excitement. (i am going to be honest) Sad that one more day has passed, and i am that much older... But flip the coin, and i am so completely excited because i am one day closer to being with my knight!
i tend to think of myself as an optimist. i view the glass as half-full the majority of the time, thats why my excitement outweighs the bit of sadness that is mixed in.
For all the fellows out there that may or may not ever hear of this waiting ruby in VA-
DONT GIVE UP! Keep on building that character, become that gentleman and man after God's heart! - there are a few of us gals, who are princesses in their daddy's eyes, waiting for "knights" and men like you!

im just me

my hair's not blonde

an' im no size 2

my eyes change colors, but sure arent blue

but i love to laugh

and make others smile

stick around, ill be your friend for a while

i dont think ill get much taller

an' though im tryin'

i may not get any smaller

sun up, till it goes down

i work really hard

to get lots done at home or in town

my teeth arent straight

in my small mouth

an' the color of my hair, well its fake

though im not most guys' "type"

there IS a man made just for me

who's gonna think im out-of-sight!

grace

For a girl who longs to be married, weddings can be bitter-sweet. Within the last week i have had three- not one, not two, but THREE wedding showers to go to! With each one that i set out to attend, i prayed that God would allow me to be a blessing, and encouragement, but also to enjoy the time of fellowship and pampering to each of these future brides. God's grace is amazing! As i came away from each one, i was encouraged. A little bit of hope kindled at each one, and a passion for Christ's love to so well up in me, that it would be the biggest part of my future relationship!! i learned lots of wisdom and advice from other married ladies that were present, all of which i wrote in a notebook for my husband, that way we can remember it together later! God is good, and to that i am holding on to!!!

i miss him!

Its kind of funny how quickly someone can steal your heart.
One look and your breath catches in your lungs-
you swallow your heart-
and in that moment you know you would do ANYTHING for them.
He is no different- and i miss him like crazy!
The way he said my name-
and the way he'd sit and cuddle with me-
waiting for me at the door when i'd come home from work-
locking my car from the house window to hear it *beep*
just hearing him talk, and tell stories of things that happened or were important to him...

Time passes quickly... seems like just yesterday this was where we were-

We had a bond from the very beginning. . . Something about a fellow thumb-sucker, and being his oldest aunt, i don't know, but i fondly hold each memory made with him- from over night trips, cuddling in bed, or road-trips to Florida!

i can't believe that my little man will be two on Monday! He is all the way in Tennessee, and i will miss being there to dote on and celebrate with him. BUT- i will see him soon, and our relationship will continue to grow... for nothing will come between-

Bubito and Nina! Happy (early) birthday!! Love you!!

i have something to tell you

i have something to tell you. . .
You only have one day to live- the bad news is, i should have told you yesterday!

My 10 year old sister just shared this with our family. Where she gets this from, i dont know, but it gave us a good laugh! =)

i LOVE MY FAMILY!

peace--- agian

It seems that i write a lot about peace.
Well not really because i do not write a lot, but one of my more recent posts was labeled "Peace"
Its not a bad thing, one might get the idea that my life is in turmoil. But alas, God is just showing me His peace, and how truly wonderful it is!

i am not very popular, but i know a lot of people. i have a job that brings hundreds of people across my path daily, as well as social networks online, friends, church... there are lots of places that i know or see people, guys included. This is fun in a lot of ways, because i like guys. That last statement can sound really wrong if you have a gutter-mind, but i mean it just in what it says. Guys are a lot of fun. i dont have brothers so i find them interesting and amusing as they try to figure things out! They can be some of the best friends, though sometimes clueless! =) That is also ok, because we girls can give them a hard time!

All that to say is i have gotten to know several guys as friends, and some "more than friends" Due to my convictions and standards this does not mean "Friends with benefits" just that we talked and got to know each other on a deeper than friends level, i guess one might call it dating.

When i was younger i use to say i would never date until it was the one i was going to marry. And i still dont view "dating" as something to do for the heck of it. i dont really like the term dating, but no other really seems to fit. The dating relationships i have been a part of have not been just for mere pleasure, but to openly pursue God's plan and where He was leading us, maybe to the point of marriage. i have no ring, so this post is not to say that He has led me there, yet! ;)

i just have been learning to wait, and the full extent of what that means. As each door closed to the guys that i have known, a little voice in my head would tell me its because i am not wanted. How stupid is that? i dont really want to be wanted by the wrong man!! How much more hurt would that be!?!

God has a clear plan and direction for my life. Though i dont know what tomorrow holds, He does. Sometimes i find that i have to keep reminding myself of that. =) A friend sent me the following verses in an e-mail yesterday and it was a great encouragement. i am holding to them!

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6-7

The heart speaks. . .

i can NOT take credit for the creativity of this post, nor the pictures listed. I copied them from another blog i follow because it was so great! She did a good job, and its so true! =)

Has the world completely gone mad? Really, is there any love left?? Maybe this just sounds like random babbling, but I ask YOU to take a look at these images and judge for yourself...

'Go Home.'

What?! Does anyone else remember the days when candy hearts said things like; I love you - You're Beautiful - Marry me? (although I did always wonder how many people actually used a candy heart to propose...) But 'Go Home'? Come on! A slap in the face from a piece of candy is what that is! Truly the world has lost it.

Oh yeah, this is a step up.

Who doesn't want candy with MAGIC randomly put on it?

Awwww- you're moderately fine, too.

I love you like a clogged artery in the bottom of my heart.

Oh. Sure... No, no! It's fine... I'll just... You know... Go out and buy a fax machine now...

I mean sure, movies are getting worse, kids are more disrespectful, good morals are becoming rare- But now the candy hearts are corrupt?! Pretty soon we'll have candy hearts with: I don't like you - You're fat - I know where you live... printed on them.

Colors = Happiness, so they'll probably all be black soon...

*sigh* If nothing else, the gummies haven't failed me yet.