Saturday, March 26, 2011

i miss him!

Its kind of funny how quickly someone can steal your heart.
One look and your breath catches in your lungs-
you swallow your heart-
and in that moment you know you would do ANYTHING for them.
He is no different- and i miss him like crazy!
The way he said my name-
and the way he'd sit and cuddle with me-
waiting for me at the door when i'd come home from work-
locking my car from the house window to hear it *beep*
just hearing him talk, and tell stories of things that happened or were important to him...

Time passes quickly... seems like just yesterday this was where we were-

We had a bond from the very beginning. . . Something about a fellow thumb-sucker, and being his oldest aunt, i don't know, but i fondly hold each memory made with him- from over night trips, cuddling in bed, or road-trips to Florida!

i can't believe that my little man will be two on Monday! He is all the way in Tennessee, and i will miss being there to dote on and celebrate with him. BUT- i will see him soon, and our relationship will continue to grow... for nothing will come between-

Bubito and Nina! Happy (early) birthday!! Love you!!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

i have something to tell you

i have something to tell you. . .
You only have one day to live- the bad news is, i should have told you yesterday!

My 10 year old sister just shared this with our family. Where she gets this from, i dont know, but it gave us a good laugh! =)


Thursday, March 17, 2011

peace--- agian

It seems that i write a lot about peace.
Well not really because i do not write a lot, but one of my more recent posts was labeled "Peace"
Its not a bad thing, one might get the idea that my life is in turmoil. But alas, God is just showing me His peace, and how truly wonderful it is!

i am not very popular, but i know a lot of people. i have a job that brings hundreds of people across my path daily, as well as social networks online, friends, church... there are lots of places that i know or see people, guys included. This is fun in a lot of ways, because i like guys. That last statement can sound really wrong if you have a gutter-mind, but i mean it just in what it says. Guys are a lot of fun. i dont have brothers so i find them interesting and amusing as they try to figure things out! They can be some of the best friends, though sometimes clueless! =) That is also ok, because we girls can give them a hard time!

All that to say is i have gotten to know several guys as friends, and some "more than friends" Due to my convictions and standards this does not mean "Friends with benefits" just that we talked and got to know each other on a deeper than friends level, i guess one might call it dating.

When i was younger i use to say i would never date until it was the one i was going to marry. And i still dont view "dating" as something to do for the heck of it. i dont really like the term dating, but no other really seems to fit. The dating relationships i have been a part of have not been just for mere pleasure, but to openly pursue God's plan and where He was leading us, maybe to the point of marriage. i have no ring, so this post is not to say that He has led me there, yet! ;)

i just have been learning to wait, and the full extent of what that means. As each door closed to the guys that i have known, a little voice in my head would tell me its because i am not wanted. How stupid is that? i dont really want to be wanted by the wrong man!! How much more hurt would that be!?!

God has a clear plan and direction for my life. Though i dont know what tomorrow holds, He does. Sometimes i find that i have to keep reminding myself of that. =) A friend sent me the following verses in an e-mail yesterday and it was a great encouragement. i am holding to them!

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6-7