Avast mateys!

In lieu of international talk like a pirate day, i thought i would share with you a pirate adventure that REALLY happened!
You see, after life on the farm, (which i will one day fill you in on) Mr. J and i decided to head to the OBX for a needed get-a-way of R&R! ;-)
My family tagged along (really it was us doing the tagging, but for fun story telling we will go with the added members of my family coming along with us!)
My sister has three boys who have my heart-strings wrapped around their chubby and sometimes sticky little fingers. So what doting aunt and uncle wouldnt want to make lasting memories for them? So we embarked in transforming our simple fun personalities into treasure leaving swash-buccaneers! It started with the construction of chests....

i got three plastic containers and wood printed contact paper for my chests. All from the Dollar Store, i paid $5 for three chests and had paper left over!

the duel colored paper
i was hoping looked
like wood-inlay

i had help filling the boxes with little toys, yummy candies, and what treasure box would be complete without gold??? Of course the gold coins had to make it in there!!




We managed to keep the loot hidden through the packing, riding and unloading of the cars. (i was excited for this b/c i had hopes and ideas of how it would all unfold!) Half way through the week, we decided to have the pirate strike the house! With help from my creative writing sister, and my map drawing husband, we plotted out our course and the hunt that would lead the boys to their treasure!

"Avast Mateys... Treasure awaits ye, so work as a team
Start in the room of your Papa and Meme
Im a Pirate Captain and Ive hidden my map
Under the place where you lay for a nap!"

Captain P... *aka Mr. J

how the note was left to be found

the loot

Captain P burying the treasure

In it goes

all safe and sound just waiting to be found

Hide all evidence!

"X" marks the spot

you can see the wheels turning as
he is trying to figure it out!

i LOVE the look on his face!
What made it perfect was a "pirate ship" was seen on the
ocean that morning, they came running out to see it, and Alas,
the note was found!!

And look for an "X"

Look mom! A real captain left a
map for me!

We have to go around to the
beach, and loop around!

looking for clues

on the hunt

Moose and Mr. J taking it all in

down by the surf

 

 

There's the "X"!!!!

Let's DIG!!

Even Moose got in on the digging!

the initials marked who got each chest
(went with the birth names instead of
Bito, Moose and Bean)

All the guys in the action

 

Surprised the Bean with a chest of her
own - b/c she's such a great sister, aunt...
and youre never too old for a treasure hunt!!!

Moose clearing off the sand

*edible* Gold D'Blooms!!

i think the hunt was a hit as the loot was unpacked and enjoyed. Sticky fingers, painted nails (Bean only) and sword fights followed as comments were made about "that Captain" and how he knew what kind of treasure would be best for them! =)
It did my heart good to be able to do this! i think i had almost as much fun as they did! i will leave you with a picture of Tank, he didnt get a loot box, but got plenty of doting and spoiling this week, so,... i dont think he minded! =)

seriously, i smile every time i look at this picture!!

Life on a Farm

DAY 1:
Well Mr. J and i have some really good friends that needed some help, and in turn we get to "play house" for a week.
i guess i should back up, just a bit. Due to my lack of blogging, many of my life details are unknown.
Back in April, Mr. J and i left our barn apartment and moved in with my parents. (many reasons)
We have our own little area that can be closed off from the rest of the house and has been quite a blessing.
In May we celebrated Enoch, and as hard as that time was, it was so nice to be where we were.
Over the last few weeks we have been all over the place: Florida for vacation with Mr. J's family, upon returning we then we got a 2 week house sitting job- so we have been vagabons this summer! =)
(i dont mind, as long as i am with my man, we make an adventure out of it!)
So... bringing you up to speed- Mr. J and i are on our second house sitting job of the summer, and this time... its a farm! i pride myself in being a country girl, but when you have animals to tend to - it stretches one beyond all comfort zones!
This morning we saw the family off, and then set to tackle the morning chores of feeding, watering, gathering eggs and milking the cow.
Yes, you read that right- MILKING the COW!!!!
i have been around my share of dogs, cats, horses and chickens, but NEVER a cow!
i resolved to leave the milking to Mr. J- but as in everything else, we are a team and so we set out together across the field to milk the little dear, not a deer, she's a cow, but oh well you know what i mean.... =)
i think she could tell we were a couple of city slickers, (is that what we would be called? i mean a person just starting out in gardening would be a green thumb, so what would we be in this case? Oh well, i shall label us city slickers for now, though Mr.J and i both prefer the country to the city rush and lights...)
The cow did cooperate enough to get on to the milking pad, and even stood still for a bit. . .
But we, not being regular milkers were not as fast. After her grain bribe was gone, the fun began. She managed to poo not twice, nor three or four times, but FIVE, yes, FIVE times during our milking process. At least one of which splattered into the milk pail before we could fully move it out of the splash zone!
So... our morning milk was lost, no since in crying over it.
i looked that ole brown cow square in the face, ankle deep in mud and manure (feeling a bit like Anne Shirley chasing her Jersey cow of Mrs. Lynn's crops) and told her, "You had better get used to us- we arent going anywhere and you are just going to make this a long week for the both of us." (i guess i should add here that we were told she likes to be sung to, but my singing must have cause pain, because i was quickly head-butted into silence!) =)
It really was not so bad, just took a while longer than we thought. Maybe by the end of the week, milking twice a day, we will be pros at it! Mr. J did let me try and i can say - i have milked a cow! not fully since Mr. J had her near drained, but got down, whacked by that whip of a tail, squeezed the udder and had milk come out. i feel accomplished! =) Haha!
At least the other animals were fairly easy to take care of!
Like all else, we shall have an adventure in playing farm, and see how well we turn out at the end of the week!
Stay tuned for more - there is bound to be something! =)

live. move. be.

This is a picture found in the Creation Museum. (If you have never been- go!)
Mr. J and i went there for our one year anniversary this past March. 
It was a wonderful trip celebrating each other and the year God had given us together. We shared many adventures - maybe i will put up more pictures in another post.
This post, however, i want to focus on that verse in the picture.
You see, a week before we left to head west, we found out we were expecting our first child. 
This trip was a huge milestone for us- not only our fist year of marriage, but realizing we would no longer be a family of two. As we chatted on the somewhat long drive =) we shared fears and exciting dreams we had for our baby, not knowing the plan GOD had for him. 
When i saw this picture, it was a momma's heart-string being pulled. 
i saw the baby- instantly wondering about ours and counting ahead the days to when i would have that first ultrasound. The verse was encouraging then- being reminded that the baby inside me was because of GOD, but it is even more so now. . .
Today marks the third month since we celebrated Enoch's life.
I am stronger now than i was- emotionally, mentally, physically and even spiritually.
GOD promises never to leave us, and through this journey, HE has been closer than ever.
My pregnancy ended too soon for me, but not for GOD. 
It was not too soon for HIS plan to be put in action.
My baby was not too small to bring glory to HIM.
In HIM, Enoch can live, and move, and be- Because GOD created, purposed and wants him to do those things!
Enoch is experiencing a life i can only look forward to.
But for now- GOD is helping me to live, and move and be. . . in HIM!

Learning

Its been two months and 13 days since Enoch went to his forever home. . .
i thought i was doing good and on the mends. 
There are still times of sadness and "why?!" but for the most part, i have healed- physically, emotionally and mentally.
Until yesterday...
i came across a friends blog who just recently found that she and her husband are expecting their first child. i am so happy and excited for them! They are sweet, young and will be great parents- but as i read their blog, i sobbed. 
Their story was much like mine: finding out their pregnancy, going to the doctor and then not being able to "find their baby" They too went through rounds of blood work and after a week went back in for another ultrasound and there was there baby. Growing, healthy, and living. Again, i am VERY happy for them. 
i would not want a miscarriage to happen to anyone- yet i know they happen more often than we think. 
i found myself in a state of "Why not Enoch?!" "What did I do wrong?!" "Did i not have enough faith?!"
My wonderful husband held me in his arms as my heart broke and tears streamed my face. He reminded me of GOD's goodness, and how HE has been glorified through Enoch's home-going. GOD has certainly used Enoch's life- maybe more this way than if we had been able to have him...
i KNOW i will see Enoch again one day.
i KNOW GOD is good and had a plan and a purpose for his life, as short as it was. 
i KNOW that GOD will grow our family when HE sees the time is right. 
i KNOW that i have things to work on, focus on and do on a daily basis to prepare for whatever GOD brings my way.
At church on Sunday the pastor said, "There are two things that are eternal; the Word of GOD and people's souls- we should be about both of those things."
That's some of what i am working on. 
Last night at church we sang a very familiar song.... The chorus ministered to my weary heart and i fully surrendered and let go in the promise of knowing GOD will never let go....

Matt Redman: You Never Let Go

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?
(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth
(Chorus)
Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

HEAV fun!

Anyone who has ever watched tv, or more specifically TLC, will know who the Duggars are. 
This family, whose first show was going to just be a documentary- has for almost ten years glorified God and preached His name to the nations through the "living life" of their family. 
i have enjoyed the times i have been able to watch their show, but never thought i would ever be able to meet them. . . until this weekend!

HEAV held their annual convention this weekend and the keynote speaker just happened (not really- God's hand was totally in the moving process of getting them to our convention) to be the Duggars!!!

My family was excited to say the least! We registered early. We waited like kids for Christmas for this weekend to get here - i must add it was NOT just because the Duggars were going to be there, that just how awesome the VA homeschool convention is! You can be challenged by workshop breakout sessions like the one i went to by "The Busy Mom" - Heidi St. John, get to meet-up with long time friends you only see at the convention, and even meet people you never thought you would - like i did with the Duggars! =)
It was a lot of fun to meet them and it was encouraging to hear their hearts! The thing that Michelle challenged me with was JOY! She always had a smile on her face, and really sought after keeping a spirit of joy in and about her, and whenever her husband, Jim Bob, spoke, her eyes would fill with admiration and never divert from him! God has certainly worked in and through them over the years! It sure was fun getting a few moments to say hello and take a few pictures! =)

  

 Jinger and i are on the left and the Mr. J and i are in the center picture with Jim Bob and Michelle and on the right i am with Jessa. They were all SUPER sweet and a joy to talk to. i mentioned earlier about Michelle's challenge of joy to me. You must choose JOY! When you feel you are upset or about to raise your voice, choose to lower it. Choose to smile. Choose to remember that God has given you joy and it is a fruit of the Spirit. When you exhibit joy, it is just evidence of your growth in God's Word!! 
 "this day is holy to our Lord. Do not sorrow, for the joy of the Lord is your strength." Nehemiah 8:10b

May you be strengthened this day. . . 

i love you

i'll love you forever,

 

a beautiful necklace you Aunt Meg made me

i'll like you for always,

 

your daddy and i built you a bear

as long as i'm living,

 

so we can tell your siblings about you and where you're waiting for us

my baby you'll be.

Celebration Day

"Since you were precious in MY sight, you have been honored, and I have loved you,"... Isaiah 43:4a

My Dear Enoch, 
Today my heart is heavy. This day women all over are being remembered, doted on and honored as moms. It is because of you dear one, i get to be honored as well. 
At church this morning, i talked (and cried) about you. i tried to think on all the encouragement and things GOD has done through your home-going, but the pain was still there. The tears burned and started so stream, as one of my friends told me, "They aren't always tears of mourning, but tears of a momma's love..."
Dear Enoch, how i wish you could be here still. To feel you kick and wiggle with growth and life. . . to be able to hold you in my arms in just a little while. i just have to wait a little while longer....
i mentioned in your birthday letter why your daddy and i chose your name. . . our prayer has been that GOD would be glorified through our lives, and you being a part of it, means that HE would be glorified through you as well. GOD has lead people to HIMSELF in ways you may be finding out. Some dear friends gave me a card this afternoon - one that said a Gideon Bible has been placed somewhere. It could be a hotel, a military base, a restaurant, a school or prison. GOD's word will not return void. My dear Enoch, if someone is able to find the truth because this Bible that was placed in your honor, then your life here- short as it was- was not in vain. 
Some doubts and fears still rise- the "What If's" being the most plaguing. Among some of the words of encouragement and advise a friend shared her story with me. Her little one was also called home before her meeting and the "what if's" consumed her and her husband. GOD showed them Philippians 4:8 and they made a pact- No "What If's" only "Whatever"
Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.
When GOD decides to bring us your brothers and sisters, we are going to do our best to remember whatever, not what if. . .
Know that you are loved and missed, and will always be in my heart! Love always, your momma